Fear of failure. I hate it. It sucks. Go away.
Procrastination hits everyone, some more than others.
From the outside, I look like a perfect student or something. Ever since I can remember, I give 100% on everything I do. When I do something, even if I hate it, I do it right. I do it the proper way.
I get good grades, I don’t make mistakes, I work hard.
Still, I procrastinate way too hard sometimes. It’s been there forever, and it’s definitely something that has prevented me from reaching the highest goals that I’ve wanted. It’s stopped me from being truly exceptional or elite level.
When it comes to important or big tasks, my brain always struggles with starting it. I subconsciously hold back my full effort, and I know it’s a mechanism to deal with the impending fact that I’ll probably fail. It has to do with my worthless and pitiful pride. I hate it. I abhor it. I want it to go away.
I hate to think that it’s a part of me, but it probably is. FF man. Fuck.
